I read a blog today that encouraged people to blog, to write their thoughts and recount their day. The idea being that someday your children will be thankful that you documented their childhood. What this blog didn’t say was sometimes the days are short, sometimes you need to sacrifice need vs want, some days you will not want to write nor should you, some days your kids need you to be very present…all this blog said was that you should blog…for your children.
Now, lets be honest, this lady surely wasn’t trying to guilt me into blogging, she wasn’t purposefully trying to make me feel bad for not documenting my child’s life. And really, I don’t think I feel that way, I do feel like in our life, in the way that I have been living the last year of my life…that blogging is maybe not for us. That maybe my connection to social media isn’t working.
I am thankful for the memories that I have here in this place, that I can look back and see where we were. But the cost of all of it seems a bit high for me right now. I think that blogging and Facebook are a passive way of having relationships. I think that I want my kids to see me talking to humans! To making phone calls and writing letters. That I want them to see that you have to actually contact someone to know how they are doing, what their thoughts are, how their day was.
We have been busy, and I have been socially absent. I have pulled away from my friends and only kept the relationships that are easy and effortless, but I didn’t realize it because I still knew what so and so was doing because they updated FB that they were at the grocery store and that made me feel like I didn’t need to call. And I don’t want my kids to think that this is how a relationship works.
Not to say that in a week I will log back on or start bloggin like a mad woman, but for now…I need some real connection. I need my kids to get a real connection!!